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Tuesday, June 22, 2010

Tried and Failed

刚刚,尝试export我的blogspot去wordpress。
转是转到了,可是wordpress不懂是太advance还是什么鬼,我竟然不懂要怎样去edit那些font size和一大堆的formatting,搞到我三更半夜害我不甘心去睡觉。

Theme又不美,template也不懂要怎样去改,font size是小粒到连我自己都看不清楚,像老板那种有老花眼的,怎样看叻?
然后,明明换了照片,可是不见我美美的照片出现在blog里面,不像blogspot那样,可以为所欲为的乱放自认为很漂亮的照片。

结果,我还是决定钟情于blogspot啦。太花心兼三心两意,外加贪新鲜感,果然不是一件好事!

我想啊,那么讨厌麻烦的我,还是适合做个专一的人~
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=)

嗯,没错,本小姐我还算是蛮专一的。
找我准没错!
哇哈哈哈哈哈!

哦,顺道提一提,我染头发了。
可是,新公司的人似乎很“冷静”,无人问津。
如果是旧公司,我肯定可以当上一天的主题人物 =(

好啦!不要再作比较了!我的问题是在于我还不能放下之前的一切……也对啦,虽然不是很辛苦,但也算是努力经营出来的努力,就因为一个转行…………唉……
原来,我是一个害怕改变的人,对于陌生和不熟悉的环境,我是觉得没什么安全感的。
我尝试热情,但总是觉得自己把热脸贴在别人的冷屁股。
是我多心了吗?
就好像那天午餐,我尝试开玩笑的想和大家打成一片,可是感觉我和他们不同“频道”。
我不想为了想参与人家,而把自己换成另一个“频道”,我不做此等事情。
也或是我自己太早下定论?
但我是个敏感的人,我的直觉一向来何不会出错。
既然一开始就觉得不对劲了,还是不要勉强自己和别人融为一体算了。
我还是做回我自己。
大不了以后闷的时候,到爸爸的公司和他一起吃午餐,反正才差那几步路而已。

整个“文化”都好不一样,人、事、物,统统都变得好复杂。
是我太简单了?还是我应该长大了?

怎么,那个勇于挑战的我不见了呢?
那个什么都可以乱扭转成好事看得我,不见了?
我自己所谓的阿Q精神呢?
你们都跑去哪里了啊?

I'm lost... I'm totally lost... I'm afraid I might pick the wrong choice...
God... Please lead me Please guide me...
I need some guidance now... =(

偷偷(明明就是光明正大!!)告诉你们,今天在公司,自己闷闷不乐的时候,想着想着,偷偷眼泪在打滚。
好像很委屈,很可怜的……
唉…………
每个晚上,都不甘愿去睡觉。非要等到眼皮重到撑不起了,才甘愿去睡觉。
为什么?还不是因为想逃避一切……我不曾这样,不曾为了抗拒一件事情而变得如此颓废。
啊。
我到底怎么啦?

This is not what I want. I need to go somewhere where I can unleash my confident and talent, also a place for me to improve myself more and more. I need two ways and many ways communication... I don't like to work in a working environment where everyone builds up a wall protecting themselves...
I am someone who loves sharing... This is totally not what I want...
This is not what I want...

3 comments:

  1. nvr try u will nvr know which suit u best!
    now jz open ur eye n explore new thing...
    at least u know whats outside the world & ur company...
    once u stay up too long in the same company...
    u only know their culture but nothing else liao...
    v dunno whats going on outside...
    n v tot what v know already gd & enough us to survive but actually not...
    try to adapt in & if really cant make it...
    jz change....
    at least u try ur best...
    v all hav to grow up n step out from our shell to learn new things...
    & meet new ppl s well...
    if not v only hang around in our limited circle & life...
    is bored & nothing happening...
    me also going to leave the company i already stay 3 years plus...
    also a big challenge to me...
    so,
    lets jia you together!!!!
    BIG BIG HUUUG!!!!

    ReplyDelete
  2. nvr try u will nvr know which suit u best!
    now jz open ur eye n explore new thing...
    at least u know whats outside the world & ur company...
    once u stay up too long in the same company...
    u only know their culture but nothing else liao...
    v dunno whats going on outside...
    n v tot what v know already gd & enough us to survive but actually not...
    try to adapt in & if really cant make it...
    jz change....
    at least u try ur best...
    v all hav to grow up n step out from our shell to learn new things...
    & meet new ppl s well...
    if not v only hang around in our limited circle & life...
    is bored & nothing happening...
    me also going to leave the company i already stay 3 years plus...
    also a big challenge to me...
    so,
    lets jia you together!!!!
    BIG BIG HUUUG!!!!

    ReplyDelete
  3. Honey, what you said I understand. But... I know what I want.. this is really not what I want...

    ReplyDelete

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